The tree outside my window

The passing of the seasons.

15 November 2024

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This Too Shall pass.

I am so happy today.

This too shall pass

I am sad today.

This too shall pass.

There is a tree outside my window. The first time I saw it was in June when I first shifted or came to my new home. It was Green,vibrant and so alive. It danced in the wind. In my mind I could feel the joy it radiated. Every morning I would open the blinds and see it waiting for me. Just there. Existing.

It is now November. All its leaves have shed and it is covered in a thin coating of snow. A few leaves hang,brown ,sad. I dont feel sad looking at the tree but I dont feel happy either. I can just be. I can also just exist. This too shall pass. I know that the time will come when the leaves will be reborn and the tree will be vibrant and joyful once again. So this time that I have till that happens again. How do I pass it? 

I have a choice here. I could be sad,,complaining,lonely unhappy.I could also be normal,calm,existing,going by.

I could also be happy,excited finding joy in other things .

I could be all three. Some days one and somedays another.

Does this mean I am miserable?No it means I am ok. I feel sad its ok,I feel happy its ok. 

All I have on any given day is this one moment that I am in,the next moment,day is just a hope in my heart. 

The reassurance that I can be what I want on any day and still be ok. 

Because This too shall pass.